BLOG SERIES: MY JOURNEY
Often, we want God to come in and rescue us from every negative situation. We want Him to make it so that we never have to go through anything bad.
We want our God to absorb every blow for us, and to erase every pain. We want a life where we only experience good things. But this is not the life that God has promised us. And as we well know, this is also not the life that Jesus lived.
The life that we have been called to live will result in some skinned knees, some bruised heels, and a few shed tears. We will suffer loss and experience persecution.
But rest assured, God will always be right by our side no matter how bad the situation looks. He may not step in and rescue us from every situation, but He will be right there with us carrying us through.
God will be there whispering in our ear: “You can make it.” “Don’t give up.” “Don’t be afraid, I’m right here with you.” And when you don’t feel you have the strength to stand, grab a hold of His outstretched hand and allow Him to lift you up until your feet and ankle-bones are strengthened, and you are able to stand on your own. Trust God in the process.
After Ahmed died, I began to ask the question: “How will I ever be able to tell people that God is a healer when He didn’t heal my husband?” Unbeknownst to me, God was listening, and He heard me, and He was about to answer this very question for me. God would begin to reveal Himself as healer to me.
God has healed many people, the Bible tells us so. And we’ve all at some point in time heard the testimonies of people who have been healed by God.
This is not a new concept. Even if you’re not in the church or don’t run around in that circle, you still at some point have heard of miracles of healings that have taken place in people’s lives. These miracles are often unexplained. People can’t tell you why they happened or how they happened, all they know is that they were sick and now they are no longer sick — they are healed.
A miracle is some supernatural occurrence that takes place. It is the unexplained. The phenomenal. The thing that makes people stand up and take notice.
Miracles happen everyday. There are the common, everyday miracles: the birth of a child (the miracle of life); being able to turn on the radio and hear your favorite worship song (the miracle of sound); waking up in the morning and opening your eyes to behold the wonders of the beauty surrounding you (the miracle of sight); and the warm embrace of a child by a loving mother, which tells the child that everything is okay (the miracle of touch).
There are miracles taking place around us everyday, we just have to open our eyes, and our hearts, and behold them.
Then there are the miracles that are the result of faith in the one true God. These may not be as common today, or take place as often as the common, everyday miracles, but they do occur.
These miracles are triggered by our faith. When God sees that we expect Him to do the unexpected, He responds to our faith and performs whatever it is we are believing Him for.
When the woman who had the issue of blood for twelve years saw the crowd surrounding Jesus, she recognized that He had the power to do what none of the doctors she had consulted were able to do — heal her. She believed, without a shadow of a doubt, that if she could just make her way through the crowd, and touch the hem of His garment, she would be made whole.
And that’s what she did. She pressed past all the obstacles in her way, fell down on her knees, and touched the hem of His garment. And the moment she did, the moment her faith connected with the healing power of Jesus, her blood condition dried up and she was instantly healed.
Jesus, recognizing that healing virtue had gone forth out of Him, turned around and asked the crowd and His disciples, “Who touched me?” And when the woman saw that she could not hide, she admitted that she had touched Him.
She told Him about her situation and told Him that the moment she touched Him, she was instantly healed. Jesus then said to her, “Daughter, go your way, your faith has made you whole.”
Our faith in God makes us whole. It causes the blind to receive sight, the lame to walk, the dead to be raised back to life, and the dumb to speak. Faith in God releases the miracle. It’s like walking into a room and flipping on the light switch. The power is there. The electricity is there. You just can’t see it. But until you actually turn on the switch, you will never see the light.
Until you actually turn on your faith — activate it — you will never see the power of God manifested in your life. Activate God’s healing power — like the woman with the issue of blood did — by turning on the switch of faith. When you do, you will start to see miracles take place in your life.
It was when I began to read and study the gospels — Luke in particular — that my eyes first began to open to God’s will as it relates to healing.
The Gospel of Luke records the life and ministry of Jesus Christ. Luke gives us a glimpse into the powerful and anointed ministry of Jesus. We follow Him as He sets about doing the Father’s will. Jesus was on a mission, and He was determined to see this mission through until the end.
Jesus often said “I have come to do the will of the Father, who sent me.” He was sent to represent God on the earth. When you watch the progression of Jesus’ ministry, you see Him healing the sick everywhere He goes. If He saw that someone had the faith to be healed, He healed them.
Everyone was healed by Him, from the ten lepers, to the man with the withered hand who sat in the Synagogue on the Sabbath listening to Jesus teach. The only time He did not heal someone was when they did not have the faith to be healed. And Jesus was often disheartened by their lack of faith.
Faith in God makes us well. We are healed when we have faith in God to receive our healing. God’s will is to restore and to make us whole. His will is to reverse what the curse of disobedience has taken away from us during the fall of man. But we must first believe that this is His will, and that He is able to do everything He says He can do. Faith says to God: Yes, I believe. Yes God, I believe you can. In fact, I’m expecting you to do it.
So why didn’t God heal my husband? This is a question that I struggled with a long time. You’ve healed so many people, God. Why not my husband?
At the time Ahmed was going through his struggle with cancer we were believing God for a miracle. We were hoping and praying that God would step in and heal him completely, and make him whole.
Ahmed would often tell people that he believed the Lord was going to heal him. And I was right there with him, hoping and praying for a miracle.
Hoping that God would have mercy on us and heal my husband. Hoping that He would see my tears, and my pain, and step in and take it all away. But, it did not end this way. The cancer eventually took over and consumed what little faith we had, and took his life.
I’ve since come to realize that at the time what we called faith was really hope.
There is a difference between hope and faith. With hope, there is an element of doubt there. You are not fully convinced of something, therefore you waiver in your faith.
You are fearful and afraid that perhaps the thing that you are hoping and praying for may not really happen. You are unconsciously doubting God’s ability and His willingness to heal. You have not become fully convinced.
This tiny bit of doubt is enough to rob you of your blessing. The Bible says that the man who waivers and doubts should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.
We did not know how to have faith. We were never taught the true nature of faith. We’d always heard, “You must have faith in God,” but no one had ever told us what this faith looked liked. No one had ever told us how to have faith. They just simply said, “You must have faith.”
Faith is a conviction in your spirit that what you are believing God for, will happen.
When someone is on trial, the prosecution usually produces evidence to prove that the defendant is guilty of the crime he or she is accused of. The evidence is real and tangible proof that a crime has been committed.
Faith, likewise, is the tangible evidence, the proof, that what we are believing God for is real. We become so convinced through faith that we start expecting it. Our faith has made it real and tangible.
Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Faith is the physical, tangible proof that your healing is real. You are convinced of it, because you have the proof, by faith.
This is why everyone who had the faith to be healed by Jesus was healed. They were convinced of His willingness and ability to heal, therefore they received healing.
At the time of Ahmed’s sickness the cancer was bigger than our faith. If we see our struggles, our illnesses and diseases as bigger than our faith, and bigger than our God, it’s impossible to receive anything from the Lord.
Our faith must rise above the everyday issues we face on earth and become thoroughly convinced that NOTHING is impossible for God. Our God is always bigger than whatever is going on in our life at the time.
Faith also comes from a revelation of who God is. If you don’t know God — His character, His nature, and His will for mankind — your faith in Him will be weak, because it’s not based on any real, substantive knowledge of Him.
Once you begin to read and study His word, and talk to Him daily in prayer, God will begin to reveal more of Himself to you. He will begin to reveal His will to you.
And once you develop a real relationship with Him, it’s impossible not to believe and trust in Him completely. God wants to show you who He is. He wants to develop an intimate relationship with you. And He wants you to walk in faith, and never doubt Him.