When I used to come home from work, as soon as I would walk through the door, I would hear my husband's sweet voice saying, "Welcome, home baby!" This made me feel welcomed, and of course, it made me look forward to coming home everyday.
My sweet husband is no longer with us (God rest his soul), but this warm greeting left a lasting impression on me. It's certainly something I will never forget.
This is how I want you to feel every time you visit my website: Like you've just stepped into a warm and welcoming hug. OnOurWay2Heaven.com is a place you can call home!
My goal with OnOurWay2Heaven.com was to build a safe place online where we could come together and openly and honestly discuss our love for God, and His great love for us. And I think I've done that. OnOurWay2Heaven.com is a place where you can belong. WELCOME HOME!
Jeanita Jinnah is a Christian blogger and Freelance writer. She lives in Lansing, Michigan where she uses her passion and her gift to reach the church with God's message of truth, holiness, and righteousness. Jeanita is passionate about God, and in helping the church grow in faith, strive for holiness, and be prepared for Christ's return.
This book is very personal to me. In it, I share my experience losing my husband, my journey through grief and depression, and how God picked me up, healed me, and made me brand new.
Background: At 24, I married my husband, Ahmed. He was my first love, a very dear friend, and my rock and support system.
It was right around the time of our 5th wedding anniversary that we got the news that Ahmed had cancer (Stage 4 Glioblastoma). This was a very aggressive form of cancer, and by the time we discovered it, it was inoperable.
Ahmed put up a strong fight, but eventually, the cancer was a more formidable opponent. The cancer won, and Ahmed succumbed to this ugly disease. He died at the age of 34. I was 31-years old at the time.
Enter Stage Right: My next formidable opponent: grief, and subsequent depression.
This was a dark period of time for me. I had lost my best friend, my first love, and the one who held me up, and ignited my heart.
In Step Out of the Shadows (For Widows Only!!!) I share some of my experiences of losing my husband at such a young age, the rejection I felt by friends, and society, and the loss of identity that stripped me down until I was raw, naked, and exposed. I felt so alone during this season of grief and depression.
It wasn't until a few years later, when I was able to look back over this period, once the fog had lifted, that I remembered some of the Godly encounters I had at the time.
These encounters were with a loving God who sat right down in the muck and the mire to offer His grieving child a shoulder to cry on, a gentle hug, and a reason to hope and believe - that there would be a better tomorrow, and a reason to live.
God was with me all along, even though I didn't recognize Him at the time. He is truly a God of His word. When He says He will never leave us or forsake us, He means it. He will NEVER leave us or forsake us.
Although Step Out of the Shadows (For Widows Only!!!) is my story, it could very well be anyone's story who has ever lost a spouse, or loved one, to death. We've all at some time experienced grief, depression, abandonment, rejection, hopelessness, and despair.
This, in fact, is the nature of grief. Grief isn't pretty. It's raw. It's ugly. And it's very uncomfortable. But with God's love you can come back from grief and depression. Just like God lifted me out, He wants to also lift you out too.
Table of Contents
Society’s Label 1
Step Out of the Shadows of Your Former Life 9
Letting Go of What Has Died 15
See Yourself Whole Again 21
Celebrate Your Former Life,
But Don’t Become Weighed Down By It 25
Allow God’s Love to Heal You 29
Absence of A Covering 41
Your Destiny Awaits You 47
If you, or anyone you know, have lost a loved spouse, this book is for you. It's a refreshing read. It speaks to just about every widow's situation.
It encourages widows everywhere to step out of the shadows - of the labels society places on widows, of the life you used to live with your spouse, and out of grief and depression, into a better and healthier future. Step Out of the Shadows (For Widows Only!!!) is my gift to widows.
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Holiness - What is Holiness?
Nowhere in the Bible does it say that certain sins are okay, while other sins are not okay. Or that God will overlook certain sins, but rain down damnation and judgment on others.
Man has come up with this fallacy on his own.
Probably since the the fall of man has man been placing his own interpretations on sin. If he deems a sin to be an abomination, he labels it so. And where he finds certain pleasures in other sins, he deems these sins pardonable. Because, after all, who would condemn his own sins?
God places no such distinctions on sin. In God’s eyes, there are no “good sins” and “bad sins.” Sin is sin to God, and all sin needs to be acknowledged, repented, forgiven, and covered by the blood of Jesus.
We have become experts at cherry-picking our favorite sins. “I’ll take this one, and this one, and this one.” Please, and thank you. Read more...
I was just thinking back to when I was in Bible School, and for practicum credit I attended a seminar for couples who were engaged and about to get married.
The couples at this seminar, and there were two, were required to take the seminar as a prerequisite for marriage.
I mostly sat in as an observer, and would chime in when I was called upon, or had something I wanted to inject into the discussion.
My Observant Eye
Now, being the observer that I am, I kept noticing one of the couples in particular who was very affectionate with one another.
The young lady seemed almost needy and starved for affection because she would do things – subtle things – to get her fiance’s attention whenever he wasn’t showing her enough affection. Read more...
They saw that, despite what they told themselves, they just didn’t quite measure up to Jesus.
Where He was strong, they were weak. Where He was holy and righteous, they were self-righteous (which amounts to nothing in the kingdom of God). Where He was a chosen vessel of God, they were rejected … because of their self-inflicted scars, made more visible by sin.
It’s also hard for us to look at ourselves through the lens of truth. When we read the Bible, it is like holding up a mirror to our face and seeing ourselves as God sees us. The image reflected back at us does not represent the image we try and portray of ourselves (one of being inherently good).
When God looks at us, He sees us as we really are. No mirrors. No smokescreens. Just raw and unfiltered. And this bothers many people. Read more...
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The Church - God's Ambassadors on Earth
My dear fellow Christian, are you still in love with sin? Sin can be deceptive. If we are not careful, we can find ourselves wrapped up in it. It can consume us and take over our lives.
Sin also defiles us. God said we must be holy because He is holy. But, we cannot be holy if we are still living in, and practicing sin. It’s time for the people of God to come out of sin, for God hates sin and will one day stand in judgment of sin once and for all.
What is sin? Sin is any unrighteousness. In fact, the Bible says that “all unrighteousness is sin” (1 John 5:17). To be righteous means that we are in right-standing with God. So unrighteousness is wrongdoing, wickedness, sinfulness, and evil. To be unrighteous means we are not righteous. When we are unrighteous, we are not in good standing with God.
What happens to those who are not in good standing with God? First of all, this is not a place we want to be. We want to make sure that we are always on God’s “good side.” In other words, we do not want to incur His wrath.
Just ask Aaron’s sons: Nadab and Abihu. Aaron and his sons were the priests God had chosen to be intermediaries between God and the people. They were chosen specifically to offer up the sacrifices that the people brought to the Lord.
God gives detailed instructions to the people how these sacrifices are to be conducted. Read more...
There used to be a time when the wolf had to dress up in sheep’s clothing to fool his prey to get close to him. The sheep, busy grazing on lush green grass to notice, with only a fleeting glance would think that the wolf was one of their own.
Today, the wolf doesn’t even need a disguise. He’s become a part of the flock. The wolf just walks boldly up to the sheep baring fangs and flicking his tail and the sheep don’t even bat an eye. Why? Because the wolf is a master-disguiser (a trickster, a master manipulator). He’s now able to blend into the flock of sheep without needing a disguise.
The sheep have lost their fear of the “big bad” wolf. They’ve become blind to the wily ways of those who have a predator spirit. Read more...
We are becoming more and more distracted these days. There are so many things vying for our attention that if we are not careful we can quickly become disengaged.
It’s hard to walk down the street without being bombarded with signs and billboards trying to sell you something. These people are trying to convince you that their product(s) will actually save your life, save you time, or save you money.
And how about the gossip magazines, and the last-minute ‘must have’ items that are strategically placed where you can see them while you wait in the checkout line at the grocery store. Read more...
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Prayer - "Lord, Teach Us to Pray"
Does God hear me? Does He care?
How can you be certain that your prayers are being heard by God?
The Prayers that God Hears
Do you want to be certain that God not only hears your prayers, but answers them?
Did you know that there are certain prayers that are guaranteed to get a response from God? It’s true. If you pray these prayers, you can be confident that God hears you, and will respond. What are these prayers? Read more...
It’s time for the “Church” to stand up!
The forces of darkness are ravaging the earth. Satan’s forces are stealing, killing, and destroying, while the Church is asleep. The Lord is calling us to do battle against the forces of evil — In Prayer!
There’s so much happening in the world today because, as we know, we are living in the last days. The Bible warned us about things to come in the last days, and those things are clearly evident now.
But, just because the Bible foresaw it, doesn’t mean that we should take a back seat, and do nothing. There IS something we can do. We can pray.
Instead of praying, we’ve become distracted. We are often distracted by the things that are not profitable to the mind, or the spirit. We’ve become lukewarm, much like the church of the Laodiceans in Revelation 3… and God said because they were neither cold or hot, He would spit them out of His mouth.
We must restore the Holy Ghost fire in us. And that will only happen with fervent prayer. We CAN make a difference with Intercessory prayer. Read more...
We need to make sure we are covering our children in prayer everyday.
There is so much going on in the world today — you hear about it in the news everyday. School shootings, bullying, kidnappings… The world has changed considerably since we were children.
There used to be a time when parents could send their children outside to play — we would be out there all day playing (and getting into mischief!). Parents would often tell their children to be home by the time the street lights came on.
But today, parents are too afraid to send their children out alone, without keeping a wary eye on them at all times. Because, you just never know…
Kids are also feeling the strain. They suffer from a lack of physical activity, and stimulation; and the robust imagination that comes from being able to explore their world through play. Read more...
15 For this reason, because I have heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all God’s people,
16 I do not cease to give thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers;
17 [I always pray] that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may grant you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation [that gives you a deep and personal and intimate insight] into the true knowledge of Him [for we know the Father through the Son].
18 And [I pray] that the eyes of your heart [the very center and core of your being] may be enlightened [flooded with light by the Holy Spirit], so that you will know andcherish the hope [the divine guarantee, the confident expectation] to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints (God’s people), Read more...
Take this quick 2-question quiz. How well do you know Genesis?
On the first day, God... [Genesis 1:3-5]
What did God do on the first day?
The firmament was... [Genesis 1:6-8]
How does the Bible describe the firmament?
"...I write so that you will know how one ought to conduct himself in the household of God, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and support of the truth." (1 Timothy 3:15 NASB)
Serving - Having a Servant's Heart
God is looking for a different kind of Christian. Not the kind we see day-to-day. Not the kind that promotes himself … his ministry … his gifts and talents.
Not the kind who seeks notoriety and elevation among men. Not the kind of Christian who seeks top billing for a preaching gig at the International Convention … where his name, and picture, are prominently displayed on a flyer for a preaching assignment at the convention.
This is when one thinks he has really “made it.” When everyone knows his name…. when he is sought after… when men and women pat him on the back – “You sure did preach today, brother!” “Yes sir, you preached my soul happy!”
God is looking for the Christian who is willing to humble himself so that God can get the glory.
God is looking for the Christian who will stand flat-footed and say, “It’s not I, but Christ who lives inside.”
God is looking for the Christian who, when men try and elevate him, he pushes back and says, “Not so. The God I serve, He alone deserves the glory.” Read more...
So what does ministry mean to you? Preaching across the pulpit?
Seeing your name in “lights” (on a flyer for a speaking engagement at the national convention)?
Having the title of minister or pastor?
Having people know your name?
Being acknowledged by people as a minister?
I’ve heard the word ‘ministry’ being thrown around a lot. People don’t think they’re in ministry unless everybody knows and acknowledges their ministry.
Jesus’ ministry included ministering to the poor … the sick … the blind … the weak … and washing His disciples’ feet. His ministry resulted in dirt on His knees, as He regularly communed with God through prayer.
Jesus brought glory to God through His ministry, rather than to Himself. Read more...
The line is looong for those desiring to be leaders, but few people today want to be servants. Whenever there is any type of leadership training, people come in droves. People everywhere desire to be better leaders.
Leaders are highly valued and respected in society. They are often those who are the most influential in society – those who can easily enlist the aid of people to accomplish a task.
Servants, on the other hand, are often considered to be the less desirables in society. They are the least influential and the least respected. No one wants to be a servant … as this class is looked upon with disdain and contempt.
While leaders walk with their heads held high, servants often exhibit a disposition of humility — they carry themselves in a manner as to not be seen or heard.
Servants fear that drawing attention to themselves could potentially lead to a volley of verbal and/or physical abuse by those whom they serve. So, why would anyone want to be a servant? Read more...
Take this quick 2-question quiz. How well do you know the book of John?
Jesus drove the traders and the money changers from the temple with a... (John 2:14-15)
How did Jesus drive out the money changers?
John the Baptist compared himself to a... (John 3:28-30)
Who was John the Baptist?
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Faith - It's Impossible to Please God Without Faith
Faith is one of those things where you either get it or you don’t. There is no in between with faith. You either have it or you don’t.
The concept of faith can be complicated to some while others have no problem grasping the concept and the very nature of faith.
What is faith? Faith is the unwavering assurance and confidence in God.
With faith, we have complete trust in God. In His existence. In His omnipotence. In His sovereignty. In His unlimited power.
Faith believes that God is who He says He is, and that He can do everything He says He can do – no questions asked. Read more...
There are times when our leaders can’t be trusted. By now everyone across the country has heard about the Flint water crisis. Flint, Michigan is going through a rough period right now where the residents don’t have clean drinking water flowing from their taps.
While this crisis is just becoming national news, the people of Flint, Michigan have been dealing with this issue for quite some time now.
In 2014, the emergency manager that had been placed over the city made the fateful decision to approve switching the city’s water source from the Huron River to the Flint River (which is a filthy water source that remains untreated to remove harmful chemicals and pesticides).
The welfare of the residents were not taken into consideration with this decision to change the city’s water source. The decision was made to save money: purely economics. Read more...
Grief and Depression