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Depression UnMasked

Depression is a spirit that is often hard to detect. After surviving its dark clutches several years ago, I’ll admit that it sometimes still sneaks up on me every now and then.

The spirit of depression touched my life after the loss of my spouse. It took me to a dark, scary place where I’d never gone before. At the time, I thought I was just going through the normal stages of grief — never having experienced grief before.

I knew it was normal to grieve the death of a spouse. The Bible even says, “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die;… a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance…” (Ecclesiastes 3:1-4).

So I understood what I was going through to be normal, and I was resigned to give myself time to go through the grieving process. But I didn’t want to stay there too long. And I would tell myself, “Jeanita, it’s okay to be here, but you can’t stay here long.”

But I wasn’t fully understanding that I had actually slipped from grief into depression. This depressive spirit had a vice-like grip on my soul, and wouldn’t let go. I was in a dark place, and at times, it was almost suffocating.

It wasn’t until years later, when the fog had finally lifted, that I was able to look back on this period with a clearer perspective. I knew this spirit had arrested my soul. It was so clearly evident to me, now.

And I knew that if I had remained in that state too long, I wouldn’t be able to recover from it. Some people never come back from depression. But I did, and I owe God all the praise for it.

Even though I was helpless at the time to the powers of depression (because I was already in a weakened state because of grief), God knew what was going on and He protected me and brought me out with a sound mind.

Satan desires to steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10). And he will take advantage of every opportunity to do so. He is unrelenting. If he can’t kill you, he’ll try and rob you of your happiness. Or, he’ll try and take your sound mind — causing you to have a nervous breakdown, or an emotional meltdown.

Satan will do whatever he can to stop you from being all God created you to be. So we must be on guard against him at all times.

Depression is a spirit that comes straight from the pit of hell. It does not come from God. It can sneak up on you when you least expect it. It can rob you of your life. Depression can hinder your ability to interact positively with others — to maintain loving and lasting relationships.

Do not be fooled by depression. Do not try and live with it. Do not embrace it. It is not your friend.

God can and will deliver you from the spirit of depression. And whom the Son sets free is free indeed! It tried to destroy me, but God wouldn’t let it. He counteracted depression with His joy. He brought His light to my spirit while my soul was being overwhelmed by darkness.

People actually saw this light, and told me so. Several people came up to me and said they could see a light around me. Well, I didn’t know what they were talking about, because at the time I couldn’t see anything but darkness (grief and heaviness).

There were even times I would look in the mirror, and it would look as if my face was glowing. I would see it and do a double-take. This happened several times. I recognized later that this was the light of God’s love shining through me; it was shining through the darkness.

It was God’s love that eventually healed me; that broke through the darkness and lifted the spirit of depression. God’s Love Heals. God’s love can bring you back from depression and give you joy unspeakable!!

So again, do not be fooled by depression. See it for what it is — Satan trying to rob you of the abundant life Jesus promised you. God wants to give us life, and give it more abundantly (John 10:10). God is a life-giver. Our hope is in Him. Our destiny is in Him. And no weapon formed against us shall prosper.

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2 Comments on "Depression UnMasked"

Jackie Darling
Jeanita, your post was beautiful and healing. I totally agree with you regarding the deceptive and familiar grip of depression. It can be all consuming and overtake even the simplest of tasks. I agree with the ‘glow’ of God’s love. I saw it on your face before you left town and I was so happy to see it. You were a different person. I am so happy that you are free and healing under God’s grace and mercy. I’m sure you remember my season of depression as well when we first met at SF years ago. I can report that… Read more »
Jackie, yes I do remember when you and I first met. We became instant friends. You were always a blessing and encouragement to me, and just a wonderful and true friend. You were right there and helped me through some difficult times. You encouraged me. Our meeting was no coincidence — God put us there at SF at the right time so that you and I could encourage one another. He brought us both through some rough times with a smile on our face and joy in our hearts. Thanks again for your comments. Praying God’s continual blessings over you… Read more »